The Deets.

If God doesn’t exist, why is there music?

Daughter to father, daughter to father 
I don’t know you, but I still want to 
Daughter to father, daughter to father 
Tell me the truth, did u ever love me 
‘Cause these are, these are 
The confessions of a broken heart 
Of a broken heart

It knows exactly how you feel. 

Friends are vital parts to everyone’s lives. They have their own share of feelings and emotions: laughing and crying and little bit of both; favorite songs they’d shout at the top of their lungs to, movies that they’ve seen a kajillion times and still wouldn’t get bored of, tv shows and video games they’d pull all nighters for.. Friendship to me is so important. 

Looking at my life now, I really do feel my best friends I’ve made for maybe 3 years or more, are without reach. Best friends are someone you’d call in the middle of the night with all your problems and also someone you’d know was calling in the middle of the night for theirs. Someone you’d crack jokes with all throughout everything. 

I’ve felt alone for so long, and it hurt so bad. I got to this place in my life thinking, yeah, actually.. I’ve never experienced all those other things yet. Let this be a lesson to all unknowing Christians that want to experience a lifestyle they’ve been kept from getting to: Don’t ever jump into something, knowing that it won’t be worth it. 

Placing yourself in the wrong environments, even if you’re not intoxicated, can confuse you, make you want more of just “being there”. What makes you any different? Aren’t we Christians, dubbed.. NOT of this world? 

It hurt enough being alone, but it hurt even more being amidst people that you know could be doing much better things with their lives. I am in no way, shape, or form, a better person… but I do know that the Christ in me only hopes to awaken the Christ in them. Doing so from a distance is probably a better idea, haha. 

God allowed me feel alone in my life for a specific purpose. He wanted me to run to Him, not forget Him. To depend on Him alone, not run to others. I’m coming back to the heart of worship, Jesus. I’ve run away for a while now, and I think You’ve made your point. It’s not worth it, it’s empty and temporary-filled, and I’m going to be okay. I will be okay.